If only we weren't just strangers brushing past each other everyday
If only we could take things further
If only...

I'm so vexed over Zbrush!!!
I suck at designing and no matter how hard i try to squeeze, i just don't have any creative juices
I just hope to pass this module
BUT im re-doing my design time and again
sucks balls!
presentation is next monday!
hang in there woman!

and i'm excited for school everyday now
in hope of seeing my RJT
but he always appears before me when i'm not on the look-out
damn it!

oh btw today, nicholas the knowledgable did something hilarious
we were having Critical Reasoning Skills lesson and we had to debate on some issues
we couldnt think of much points and being a really competitive being
Nicholas asked the opposition

Nic: "How many points do ya'll have?"
Opposition: "18" Haha!
Nic: "Yea right!!!"

then he turns to us and went
"Wah 18 points lei! How?" HAHAHAHAHS
okay nvm if you don't find it funny

aiya k la back to Zbrush.
pray that i don't die of excessive killing of brain cells before Monday
:)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Only to become stronger and stonger
with every quarrel




Happy 3 years and 8 months baby!
You know i love you :)

I think i should really count my lucky stars
for having met such a wonderful guy who showers me with unconditional love
no doubt there're times where we don't meet eye to eye
and things got worse cos we're both stubborn and headstrong
but what comes after those quarrels are a deeper understanding of each other
and greater love and accomodation for the other

Close to 4 years, this man of mine has never stopped caring for me in everyway possible
There're so many things he continued doing through these years
He never fails to pick me up from anywhere i was at anytime of the day
Shell prawns for me cos he knows i love eating them but am so lazy to shell them myself
Order seafood at dinnertime whenever he can cos he knows im a seafood person
Say "I love you" everyday without fail to me
And many many more things which most guys will not do after being together with their gfs for awhile
I mean seriously, does your bf still pick you up to send you home or fetch you from home everyday after being tgt for close to 4 years?
Will your bf still say "I love you" everyday after being tgt for 4 years?

I'm proud to say i'm very much loved by this man of mine
And i'm glad i have him

Baby you asked if i had regrets
And if i told you no, that'd be a lie
I definitely did. But not anymore
I love you so much and i thank you for striving hard to make us a better future :)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Lovin' you
is the greatest pleasure in my life




this song never fails to capture my heart :)


Lovin' You - Minnie Riperton

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful
Makin' love with you is all i wanna do
Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that i do is out of lovin' you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old

And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you i see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

You're the fire which burns my senses away

You're so predictable
I'm getting tired of all this shit



Happy Birthday Shana Dearest on 090909! :D


Shana's yacht party on the 5th was awesome!
the yacht's amazing..!
i am soooo gonna own one in future

i know it's been long since i've updated this space.
but i dunnoe, the older i grow the more lazy and busy i become.

anyways i met up with my dearests girlies for dinns at Ding Tai Fung just now
had a really nice catch up!
missed them sooo much!

oh btw, i'm back to MSH to work.
sucks though kinda regretted cos i still wanna play!!!
but i've got to think of the $$$$
think of the $$$ Jess!
and think of the MSH babes!
i shall persevere!

alright i will be back with more crap
and i miss you and love you loads babyboy!
you better get your ass back home now or else......

You're the fire which burns my senses away

another human came between
and we're still that pack of lies
you know it
you know me
ridiculous or unreasonable
you made me
i could be fine
perfect even
but u pushed me round the corners
u drove me up the wall
u pushed the limits
and that explains why i'm what i am now
i'm no longer a who
cos i don't even know me

i may be demanding and domineering
but haven't you known this part of me already before you had feelings?
if you could like me cos i'm this
then why can't u accept that i'm this after falling for me?
i figured i think too much
but what else can i do?
when my mind churns and works so hard
just to find the answer i never could
in suspense, hell yes!
kinda got used to it
until u touched my soft spot and left me crumbling
was it ever your fault?
cos from the vaguest memory, it'd always been mine
entirely...
for the many times you humiliated me
for the many times you insulted me
for the many times i went crazy cos of all the shit u do
ultimately, i just go numb
indulgence in cheap thrills just to numb even the teeny weeny tingles
i had to
fags, alcohol...
i asked myself why so cheap
no answer
i asked God
He showed me light so bright i shut off

u said i've changed
i dare not deny
u made me take an oath
i did, with fingers crossed from behind
we came this far i agree
but the future seems bleak
what lies ahead i do not know nor do i have the courage to think
all i know is
i've changed
u've changed
it'll never be the same before
no matter how much we try to salvage it
i left it hanging
which raged u more
but honey, i don't know what i want anymore
so i just wanna stay put at where i am now
living each day as it is
cos to me, this is the best way i can delude myself and everyone around me
that everything's alright
and that the smile u see
is what you get.

saying this much
do u fathom?

You're the fire which burns my senses away

i'm telling you now
i'm having doubts

it's been long...
i kinda miss this space
but the reason i'm not updating anymore
is cos i don't really think this space belongs to me anymore?
it's like i can't blog whatever i want here
cos there're things i have to keep private?
i don't know
i'm confused.

anyways, my baby girl's leaving tomorrow morning
have a safe trip Shana dearest
shop till you drop and make him miss u soooo much he'll be a good boy
i'll miss you and i love you!
oh and i'm really sorry for always not being able to find time out to spend with you and kell
i'll make it up to the both of u yea
take care sweetie! :)

right... so my days been packed like hell
i've never been able to stay home whole day and just bum around
so many things have happened
i'm getting myself into all sorts of shit
scew this screw everything

You're the fire which burns my senses away

could things be better now
should we not have started?

i'm having breakouts! =(
which is sooo bad
investing in loads of skincare products now
and i just crazily replenished on my shavers
bought a whole lot of refillers
have no idea why...
hahas just had the urge to splurge

alright, went over to Aunt Jolene's place last Saturday to celebrate post Mothers' Day
had a sumptuous dinner!!!
oh ya, talking bout food
i've been eating a lot recently
should seriously stop....
i will try! hahahahas

oh and i've a new best friend, Yiping =)
she loves me la seriously
cos i provide her with the best medicine in the world, Laughter!
hahas!

k la pics with dearest KellyAnne at Aunt Jolene's place...
was so bored so we cam-whored.. hahas!
good luck in ur exams love!
I LOVE YOU!!!




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she's the best cousin and best girlfriend anyone can ask for!
love you angmoh =)
Shana, i love you too!
& LYS, i love you sooo much! =)









ok bye folks!

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Don't work for the money
Let the money work for you
(as quoted from Nicholas, the knowledgeable.)
HAHAS!

Marcus Eng, u see this?! HAHAHAS! go on and laugh! HAHAHS!

okay anyways, i am so going to complete all my assignments by tonight and sleep early
mummy brought me to see the Chinese physician when i got home just now
and the physician said that my body is SUPER SUPER EXTREMELY weak already...
and i have anemia =(
so... i have to have loads of rest, stop drinking cold water and take more tonics!
and i lost 2kg ever since school started...
how great is this uhs?!

oh and favourite boy makes me happy =)

shall blog again bout Saturdays shopping trip with my dearest gfs after i've received the pics from them ya...

till then, ciao!

You're the fire which burns my senses away

i know when to be wild
and when to hold it down

had a really long day today
in fact, everyday seems to be a long day for me
haven't had a proper long beauty sleep in a long time
i seriously need to catch up on it!!!

so went home after school today
called up my personal beautician immediately
and she came over for facial
and after facial, she gave me a very good and solid back and shoulder massage
feel sooo much more relaxed now =)

assignments are piling up and i'm so lazy to get anything done
procrastination's kicking in
screw it!

school's been enjoyable cos of classmates
i'd be dreading school now if not for them
i swear...

oh and i saw a guy hitting a girl in public just now
like they're a group of malay youngsters
then suddenly this girl must have said something to incur the wrath in that son of a bitch
he started pinning her against the wall REAL HARD!
banging her head against the wall, banging her head with his
slapping her, smacking her, kicking and punching her and pulling her hair damn damn damn hard!
like she's his punching bag
and it all happened at Kallang MRT station
there're so many people looking and all
and yet he had the nerve to do such an outrageous thing
and the worst thing was the other friends just stood there watching all the drama
i felt so much like calling the police okay!

damn it! i fucking hate guys who hit girls!
I DESPISE THEM!
if u ever dare lay your filthy hands on a girl, go and chop off your own dick la seriously
u don't even deserve it okay
i curse and swear that that malay asshole's balls will grow moss and fern
and decay, rot and decompose
have pus flowing out from everywhere possible
i mean seriously, if a guy ever lays his hands on me, i'd hang him on a ceiling fan by his balls!
this i swear okay!
OMG i am so angry with myself that i didn't do anything to stop the tragedy just now
UGH!
but thank god that girl retaliated though she was still no match for that bastard
at least she tried to fight back
this i applaud her

okay i'm getting too angsty now
waiting for my boss, CWL to come online
i shall go back to my assignments and hopefully get them done =)
bye people!

You're the fire which burns my senses away

I Wanted You by Ina

To listen to the full song, just click on the link shown on the playlist above.

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I'm sorry, honey
you've been asking me why i'm behaving this way these days
but i couldn't find a perfect answer to it
until i heard this song on the Iphone
this song, the lyrics, is everything i want to tell you
is my explanation to you
i'm sorry
i tried, but i just couldn't
like a sweet drug, i got hooked up on him

and to you, i don't mean to scare you away or anything
and i'm definitely not trying to rush anything
it's just when you're on my mind, i can't think straight
i'll get over it like what i said...

You're the fire which burns my senses away

cos i want it all
or nothing at all

Happy Birthday to my dearest girl, SandraChua!
Have fun on this special day and i love you okay ! =D

School's officially started for a week already...
my biological clock's finally back to normal
my class is awesome
and all's good =)

alright... last load of pics taken a long long time ago
think last year December? hahas!






my sexy girls from MSH Direct !
miss them god damn much man...
eat, smoke, slack... all together
love u guys la!!! =)

















pretty wife of some guy! =)



You're the fire which burns my senses away

I . THINK . I'M . SHOPPING . A . TAD . TOO . MUCH !

UH-OH!

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Credits to: Agneselle
Selling this at SGD 24 mailed
OOS in store


Credits to: myassambly
Selling this at SGD 18 mailed
OOS in store.

anyone interested, please do drop me an email at jole_babe@hotmail.com
or you can text/call me directly should you have my contact number
Thank you very much =)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Happy April Fools' Day !!!

today was Tai-Tai day with my dearest Shana
everytime i go out with my dearests, it'll be Tai-Tai day
and i love love love Tai-Tai days!

so met Shana at cineleisure and we had late lunch
after, felt like doing nails so we headed to Roxy Square for classic pedicure
had additional foot and leg scrub
then went to Parkway Parade to shop
got myself another mascara but i forgot bout my eyeliner... which is a necessity for me how can i forget ?!
nvm i'm thinking of getting the gel one from Bobbi Brown =)
then in the midst of shopping we craved for sushi
so... it was to Sakae Sushi for dinn dinns
i love the company of my dearests!
they never fail to liven up my day and make me laugh like mad
am considering to take up a spa package too =)
home and i got my personal beautician to come over for facial
am enjoying life to the fullest man!
but Shana's still the ultimate Tai Tai la!
gym and yoga and all Tai-Tai activities everyday...
haha...










i kept dropping food today... hahahs


oh and we had Ben&Jerry's crave too!!!


love you soooo much dearest =)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

Selling this Butterfly Maiden Top at SGD 20
Brand New!!!
If interested, please email me at jole_babe@hotmail.com
or if you have my contact number, please do not hesitate to text/call me!
Thank you very much =)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

it's not love anymore
it's dependancy

pics for shopping trip / St James Powerhouse with dearest gfs...











huge ass dog we saw! really majestic!

and St James Powerhouse! =)




and self-shots on the way to honey's paternal grandma's birthday party






okay gdnight! =)

You're the fire which burns my senses away

you pamper me so much
i feel ashamed of myself

i dunnoe why
i'm still sourcing for other alternatives when i've already made up my mind to settle with you
is it because i'm still young?
is it because it's too early for me to even think of settling down?
perhaps...
but you're so nice to me
i feel ashamed to even feel this way
not that i don't love you anymore
i still do... alot
and i promise you i won't stray
but i guess i'm still not ready to make you "The One"
maybe i'll have to go out there and get hurt before really conceiting defeat....
before really losing and giving up all other desires!

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Sunday, 22032009 was Underwater World with honey, meiyi, shuirong, Ah Yuan (honey's bro), Leroy & Regan (honey's cute little nephews) :D















Feeding the fishes =) and scaring them too... hahas


Gigantic Crab!




With Leroy =)


The two little sweetie pies =)
Oh i had a swollen eye on that day! Crap but i had fun so heck it! =D




Then next stop was to the dolphin show... i love love love dolphins
i'm considering joining the crew to be a dolphin trainer
i am serious!


yay with one of the mature dolphins =)
it costs $15 just to touch the dolphin and take a picture with it...
another $10 just to have the same photo printed again...
Singapore's all about $$$$$$
Nabei!


Meiyi and regan boy =)








You're the fire which burns my senses away

trying to change someone is exhausting
changing someone is almost impossible

i've been thinking alot last night...
and i realised that it's really taxing to change someone to suit u
especially your partner...
i mean i totally agree that opposites attract
and because of this, there'll always be disagreements and misunderstandings
because of our differences
so you'll try to change ur partner to suit u
but after trying, u realise that it's an almost impossible task
so you'll give up and change urself instead to suit ur partner
so as to avoid quarrels and arguments
but after changing urself, u'll feel that you're not you anymore
and that it's way ridiculous to be doing all these changes
that it isnt fair
and that you're doing so much more for the r/s as compared to your partner
and that's how things go haywire

if given a choice, i'd rather be with someone on the same platform as me
having the same personality, character, sex appeal, X factor, education, goals, dreams etc...
although this would sound too boring
but then again, i believe it beats having to disagree with each other all the time
i'm suddenly so tired of having to try so hard and work so hard to keep the r/s going
if only... we were similar in just one or two ways...
i'll be thankful!

alright enough ranting...
pics for mini b'day celebration cum picnic at the Botanics!


our "cake" hahas!



















and next would be pics for CNY 2009!



my nails for CNY! love it! =D






















cute little sweetie pie Leroy! =)



Mahjong with all the beginners! hahahas!





You're the fire which burns my senses away

i so regret cutting my hair short now.. =(
looking at ppl's long and flowy hair makes me think of mine
damn! shouldn't have cut it la!
nvm.. it'll grow
i shall wait patiently! =)
so for the time being i'll be tying up my hair ALL THE TIME!
and this is because honey said that i look like...



with my hair now...
fuck right! UGH!

anyways St James Powerhouse last night with my dearests!
KellyAnne and ShanaLiem! =)
along with their other guy friends... Ian, Manki, Kim and others...
Music was great only after 12am when the fashion show was over...
but it's awesome on the whole cos it's the first time the three of us went clubbing together!
love love ! =D

oh and honey came to pick me up after i was done
love him soooo much!
like even after being together for 3 years plus,
our feelings never fade but just get stronger!
which bf will be so good as to go and pick u up after you're done with clubbing with your friends
i believe there's only rare few
and my bf is one of them =)

alright pics for New Year 2009 Countdown





with Stella jie, Sandra's eldest sister so my cousin la duh! ~













and next for pictures long long time ago when KellyAnne dearest went to meet me after my work at MSH.







and random photos...










and pics for steamboat + Haji Lane with EileenPoo =)














You're the fire which burns my senses away

light up
snub out

i want to watch a lot of movies
but i've got no time to
so i'm pretty much missing out on all the good shows
damnit!
bb let's go for movie marathon soon okay!!! =)

anyhow, pictures on my bday... =)











honey went to get this cake for me on the sly as a surprise for me =)
awww love you baby! =)

next was henserson waves!














and then off to Marina Barrage!















after pinching Sandra Chua's buttock! =) hahas!




baby was so sweet to piggyback me as my heels broke =D


You're the fire which burns my senses away