. another day of slacking at home today
. actually wanted to go out wid my cousins
. kelly and sandra
. we wanted to accompany sandra to buy her things
. but in the end last minute
. kelly had some model thingy and she had no choice but to go
. so so so... i did not go out and jus slept the whole day through
. tmrw's going out wid faliq ???
. hopefully nthg crops up

. im like so screwed up
. i keep screwing things up
. wad the hell !!!
. im feeling so lousy now
. i gotta get over tat infatuation for CCCC
. tell me... its impossible ???
. jie jie's right... im so young
. and wads more... would he fall for me???
. its hard to say
. jie jie saes tat i should not waste and pin high hopes on him
. which is CCCC cos i'll jus end up being more screwed up
. jie jie's like gal ahx... u're still so young and
. there's like so much better guys out there who might be attracted to u
. u're so young... still have so many years to choose slowly and wisely
. but hey come on... all i ask for i someone who can be there for me
. and whom i can rely on
. be like jus any other couples...
. take pictures... host on friendster...
. go movies... hand in hand...
. and all the sweet stuff...
. guess the only guy i did all these wid like a normal sweet couple
. is haikal...
. at tat time im jus so happy larx
. am i ???
. lols at least better than how i feel now
. niwaes... think i'll jus listen to jie jie and relax and cool down
. let nature takes its course and when the MR RIGHT appears
. i'll be leading a wonderful life
. not gonna be so hard on myself and make my life miserable
. WAY TO GO JESSICA !!!
. lols... LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST !!!
. trust tat i have wat it takes to deserve a great guy
. guess jie jie's love life is also on a roller coaster jus like mine
. we really share the same life ya...
. sisters are like tat
. guess she's also doing the same thing which she advised me to
. so yarx... lets jus lend our listening ears to each other
=))

You're the fire which burns my senses away