loving someone hurts
but hating someone doubles up the hurt

the weather was so cool today... such a nice weather to snuggle under the covers
its such a pity i cant do tat though... cos being the always nice sister tat i am... i accompanied my jie jie to the polyclinic... in sengkang... oh well... self praise again...
jus ate nasi ayam... hahax... and the digestive biscuits really helps man... i don feel so fat anymore...
aniways i realised tat somethings which are not meant to be... despite the countless attempts and the
never-giving-up spirit and effort u put in... trying to make it MEANT TO BE... and it jus doesn't work... though it hurts to learn the truth but we've gotta accept it and face it.
wads coming over me to say all these man ??? im having so much mixed feelings and exceptionally emotional lately... maybe its jus another phase of me growing up... im so tired... physically and emotionally...
however it jus dawns over me tat no matter wad happens... i still have to be tat very strong lady tat can take anything which comes along... i find it hard to show my weaker self ... the very fragile and debilitated jessica... i never stop reminding myself to put on a smile and be crazy... not a brusque... but just " appropriately passionate "... but bear in mind tat the strength and resistance within is limited.. i cant imagine wad would it be when i collapse and " STOP THE ACT "... man would it be disastrous ???
well.. CCCC's back in singapore for a day to clear some stuff and urgent matters and hes flying off to china tmrw wid his mummy.. and hes gonna do more shopping !!! yay...
niwaes im feelin very tired out now.. not physically.. but emotionally... i need to cool down and sort out my feelings
bye ppl.. cheers =)

You're the fire which burns my senses away