there are just somethings which i did not mean to do
but for no apparent reason, i just did it

home the whole day again today... just had no mood to leave my sweet home
well.. and i completed some assignments... satisfaction displayed
i keep having the urge to get everything to fall in place and organise all my stuff
hell knows wads wrong with me man !!! tis is jus not the jessica ??? or am i jus growing up to be a more organised and independant girl who knows what she wants exactly...
for no apparent reason, i've been feeling really moody today... theres just such a strong mix of emotions engulfing me which makes me do somethings which i don intend to and seriously don mean to... i cant even describe it myself
ex-hubby called and i sort of showed him some attitude which he obviously did not deserve... needless to say i did not even feel like talking to him... not like before when i'll feel so elated and be on cloud nine when he calls me... he noticed the change in me... heard the unpleasant tone in my voice and was disappointed ?? or sad ??? or he felt tat i was being such a queer fish... he asked why i was reacting this way and i denied and thought he was being over- sensitive... im so sorry LAOgong.. i did not mean it... i dun even noe y im reacting this way... i jus don feel like myself today... pls pardon those unneccessary attitudes from me...
and being the always supportive and understanding guy.. he tried to sound cheerful... treating as if i was also in the best mood and was not upset with me... =)
aniwaes i need to sort out my feelings before i start offending ppl...

You're the fire which burns my senses away