WE ENDED OUR RELATIONSHIP !!!

okays.. so tats not what i wanted ! and tats definitely the last thing i want to happen !!!
and i suppose i wont stop addressing him as dearie cos he'll ALWAYS be my dearie...
he initiated it, and the reason he gave kinda had no logic and was basically IMPOSSIBLE..
so i guess he prefers to not disclose the actual reason and i wont probe any further if tats the case...

well, it did not really come to me as a total shock and i was not really dealt with a huge blow though tats by far the worst thing tat could ever happen to me...
i promised him not to cry, and i wont okays my dear... even if i do, it'll only be a few drops of tears...
i took it kinda lightly.. thinking back not really lightly... as in i felt the pain and all... and i did not want to let him go... but after much thinking, i realised tat we really needed time off... we needed to cool down like what dearie said.. cos we've not been happy these few days and its hard to hold on.. although i tried so hard to hold on only to let him break it off...

being with him was almost the BEST thing tat could ever happen to me.. i love him so much !
and i swear i was all so serious bout this relationship... i learnt to mature a lot from this relationship.. cos obviously dearie isn't those kinda guy who will realy pamper their gf...
so theres many times i needed to learn to give in... and not be so wilful which would only cause quarrels.. dearie, u made me realise what it was to be loved and to love... I LOVE YOU AND I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...

im not gonna be depressed or what.. cos tat would onli make dearie feel sad too.. and cheering up would do us a lot better and hopefully we will get back again sometime later... we're jus cooling off i suppose.. and im proud tat i managed not to break down and handle this with much maturity...
i've grown stronger, much matured and am glad bout tat... anyways.. i'll still have to continue with my life...

thanks to
-astiana (shopping kaki.. sweets)
-christiana bestie
-kelly and sandra (dearest cousins)
-faliq (always there for me)
-melvin ong (always there for me)
-lester (turtle)
-jie jie (talking bout it with me)

thanks a lot ppl for cheerin me up !!! for assuring me tat everything will be alright.. MY CRAZE WOULD STILL BE DERE... hahax.. and okays... i'll see u on sat faliq.. =)
in hope for the day we'll start again.. I'LL ALWAYS LOVE U.. darling

You're the fire which burns my senses away